You don't know you are both fight until after she stops responding to what you are saying. Yes giving you the silent treatment. I never intended to hurt anybody's feeling at least not intentionally. Being in a new relationship is kinda hard to know when you have really pushed her buttons.
This is because I didn't realize I hurt her feelings not after she stopped talking to me. After I realize she has stopped I try to get her to talk then it turns into an argument that I wasn't even seeing coming but it hit me hard on the face.
Queer Boi
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
Years Later
It has been a long journey. I have morphed from the little college girl who discovered boys to the confused Lesbian and then to the the queer Boi I am today. I return today because along the way I found myself but lost a lot about myself. I return to my first love of writing and how I talked about my emotions and the state of my heart. Just when I started this lovely abandoned blog I just met a beautiful sexy girl and I was over the moon. I used to be an avid poet well that hobby or rather that writer's block has been on for the last three years.
Today I return a wounded bird with a broken heart, bitter attitude and a demolished ego and a few other things that can't come to mind currently. I have been stepped on, trashed and chewed then spit out like an unwanted piece of food. Gross I Know. This is my journey to heal.I hope months later I will return to this post and be happy about the progress I made.
Currently I hate the beautiful girl who I shall call Raven. I don't think I can love again how I did. I was a loyal , faithful and the most constant variable in her life and years later she treated me like a field slave. Although, I hope I can reconcile with my heart and all this pain, hate and despair I carry in my heart.
Queer Boi.
Today I return a wounded bird with a broken heart, bitter attitude and a demolished ego and a few other things that can't come to mind currently. I have been stepped on, trashed and chewed then spit out like an unwanted piece of food. Gross I Know. This is my journey to heal.I hope months later I will return to this post and be happy about the progress I made.
Currently I hate the beautiful girl who I shall call Raven. I don't think I can love again how I did. I was a loyal , faithful and the most constant variable in her life and years later she treated me like a field slave. Although, I hope I can reconcile with my heart and all this pain, hate and despair I carry in my heart.
Queer Boi.
Thursday, April 23, 2009
The Journey
I am going to be recounting my journey and my awakening of coming to terms with who I am. If the content on here displeases you ; please you are not obliged to stay. Finder other stuff to maroon over. I am a young adult who just joined the world of adulthood just recently left my teens years (I know go me yay!!! you can dance with your pom pom supporting me if you like- I wouldn't mind.)
Yes I am female and yes I have a weakness for other females big deal get over it already.
Growing up so sheltered did not help make my journey any easier. Just like every other kid at least that's how I thought every one was; at the ripe age of my college years I discovered boys. Oh No!!! sigh. Before you get it twisted stick around to hear for more will yah? OK discovering the attraction to boys was new and fascinating plus everyone was doing it so nice so fresh so new so wonderful I thought. It was for the most part of it anyways.
Yeah living in the world of Disney world didn't help either. I did believe in happy endings to everything and boy was I surprised as I grew up that life can be so unfriendly. The happy endings come with grieve and pain after a lot of faint unsettleness has occurred.
I have been a big fan of admiring women for as long as I can remember but I never saw the signs then. What a bummer that was for me at least that's how i look at it now. When watching movies i would be so fascinated by the female leading characters especially if they happened to be pretty and being the internet was also growing and being popular thanks to Imdb.com you get to know everything about actor/tress.
Checking out girls when you go out with your supposedly boyfriend is not funny. Especially if its the cute straight girl who lives on your block and you both are lusting for her......tbc
Yes I am female and yes I have a weakness for other females big deal get over it already.
Growing up so sheltered did not help make my journey any easier. Just like every other kid at least that's how I thought every one was; at the ripe age of my college years I discovered boys. Oh No!!! sigh. Before you get it twisted stick around to hear for more will yah? OK discovering the attraction to boys was new and fascinating plus everyone was doing it so nice so fresh so new so wonderful I thought. It was for the most part of it anyways.
Yeah living in the world of Disney world didn't help either. I did believe in happy endings to everything and boy was I surprised as I grew up that life can be so unfriendly. The happy endings come with grieve and pain after a lot of faint unsettleness has occurred.
I have been a big fan of admiring women for as long as I can remember but I never saw the signs then. What a bummer that was for me at least that's how i look at it now. When watching movies i would be so fascinated by the female leading characters especially if they happened to be pretty and being the internet was also growing and being popular thanks to Imdb.com you get to know everything about actor/tress.
Checking out girls when you go out with your supposedly boyfriend is not funny. Especially if its the cute straight girl who lives on your block and you both are lusting for her......tbc
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